Unity

by Lisa Komine

Stand up together 動き始めた　願い
Whenever, Wherever 新たな旅立ち　迎えよう

失いかけていた Soul　呼び覚ました Confide in you
不確かな未来さえ　信じられる The testify
共にした日々を　一つ、二つと　集め
咲いた　ぬくもり　強く　握りしめ

Whenever, Wherever　互いに寄り添い
恐れる事などない　闇が 二人分かつとも
確かな鼓動が そう告げているから
再び出会えるまで　想いよ　どうか　君と共に

微かに息づいた Hope　追いかけては Rely on you
不安かき消すように　君を見つけた Tragic fate
ここにいる意味を　強く、強く　噛み締め
背負う　運命　堅く つなぎとめ

Stand up together　互いに手を取り
怯える事などない　光　奪い去られても
重なる想いが　覚えているから
再び出会えるまで　救いよ　どうか　君のため

Whenever, Wherever 互いに寄り添い
恐れる事などない　闇が 二人分かつとも
確かな鼓動が そう告げているから
再び出会えるまで　想いよ　どうか　君と共に

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Translation:

Stand up together, the wish has begin to stir
Whenever, wherever, let's welcome a new journey

The soul which I had lost had awaken, confide in you
Even the uncertain future can be believed in, the testify
The days we spent together, one by one coming together
Hold on tightly to the warmth that has bloomed.

Whenever, wherever,  we snuggled up into each other
There will be nothing to be afraid of, even of the darkness separates us two,
Because the throbbing of my heart tells me so
Until we are able to meet again, somehow, keep these emotions together with you.

As I sighed softly of hope, chasing after it rely on you.
In order to erase this anxiety, you met with a tragic fate.
The meaning of being here, I have strongly, strongly contemplated
Burden, fate, stubbornly tied together.

Stand up together, as we hold our hands together
There is nothing to be scared of,  even if the light were to be taken away,
Because I am able to remember these intertwined experiences
Until we are able to meet again, somehow, salvation may come for your sake.


Whenever, wherever,  we snuggled up into each other

There will be nothing to be afraid of, even of the darkness separates us two,
Because the throbbing of my heart tells me so
Until we are able to meet again, somehow, keep these emotions together with you.

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I think this song fits Gosick very well. <3

Kaleidoscope revisted - in L:R

L : R

5  4  3  2  1...  : a hazy vision

can it be done, the 1 in 5 : pound pound beep beep

straight rows of yellow sodium : bokeh weaving through the trees

can I make it cross the road : red man green man headlights

R : L

white lamps casting harsh shadows : dilapated paths with random joggers

thumping and psh-ing in my ears : the world out there is deadly quiet

focusing on the things in front of me : I can't see clearly beyond my fingers

the endorphins : the adrenaline

Lilium

lights

I took off my glasses on the way home today,
a midnight ride along the bright streets.
The lights suffused over my visual field,
the sodium yellow, the happy red,
the living green and the neutral amber.
They exploded over each other,
each like a mini firework the size of a coin
overlapping, complementing, accentuating.
Winking at me as they flirted through
the dense leaves and the slender posts,
urging me to join in their dance.
'twas like a fantasy world,
where colours meld into each other
joining together in a mass of festival
all dreamy-like in the bokeh background.


Thoughts: if only I have conscious control over the focus of my eyes... like the focus ring of a camera lens.

Music sense

"Music is one of the ways we make sense of our lives, one of the ways in which we express feelings when we have no words, a way for us to understand things with our hearts when we can't with our minds."

http://www.bostonconservatory.edu/music/karl-paulnack-welcome-address

(thanks jx for the wonderful link)

qiito

http://www.qiito.com/
http://www.facebook.com/QiiTOfans

Yes such a shock that the idea is so similar.

*site is not working right now dunno why

sick

It's been a while since I spent a sick day alone at home, rather quiet day spent napping and recovering from this flu. Good thing it is not so hazy today.

unfair advantage

recently I have been seeing advertisements of products touting good performance to gamers, in the form of less lag, less ping, increased accuracy, faster response time etc... with this tagline "gain an unfair advantage over your friends/opponents/enemies" - which led me wondering, why are these services/products unfair? you pay more for your internet connection to get better connections, you buy a better mouse/keyboard to help you aim better... it's not something that your friends/opponents cannot buy, nor is it against any specific rules or ethics of online gaming... It is advantageous to have better hardware to play with, but it is not like using a map-hack, a aimbot or a scriptbot.

in my era (I guess I am old...) when playing as a child, we would shout "Unfair!" if someone was cheating in a game... it usually (almost definitely) has a negative connotation to it. however, if I were to take the marketing tactics into context, youths (/gamers) of today do not think that being unfair or cheating is something bad. In fact, it is a secret desire of them to have an "unfair" advantage over their peers so that they can be superior over them? or how else should I interpret the marketing slogan?

playing games is all about fun and enjoyment. yes I had my share of exploiting exploits... but the fun came from figuring how to exploit the system and not about using cheats and exploits to be #1 in the server... which is why games which are easily exploitable quickly become obsolete from my playing collection... once I figure out the exploits and use the exploits a few times I quickly get bored of the game. On the other hand, skill based games or story based games held my attention much longer than games which just focuses on grinding and grinding and grinding... do the gamers of nowadays think that having the unfair advantage would enable them to derive more pleasure out of the game? I cannot answer for them but my answer would probably be no.

On a side note - I am still very amused by Leticia's insom-nom-nom-nom-nia.

Goodnight world.

the company of myself

a game i played quite a while back... suddenly thought about it today... i like the music.

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/518729

weekends

should be a period of time where one recharges and do the things that they want to do but have no time to do in the weekdays, due to work or other commitments.

I think a superior should not give you last minute work (especially if it is their own work), expecting the subordinate to finish within 3-4 hours just because "it is due on the day itself, and I am busy in the lab". And if the subordinate has prior commitments on that day itself, the superior should not ask the subordinate to finish it over the weekend. Several reasons why.

1) It IS the superior's work. The subordinate is clueless about what the superior is doing, will have to spend some time reading about it before being able to start work on it. - It is very inefficient, and even if the subordinate manages to complete the work on the day itself, it will be a lousy job unless the subordinate has full knowledge of the matter.

2) If it is due on the day itself, asking your subordinate to complete it for you at the last minute shows that you a) don't care about the work that needs to be completed; and/or b) have a lack of planning skills, asking someone less well-versed to complete your work.

3) If it can be done over the weekend, why can't the superior do it himself? He is not going to stay in the lab the whole weekend right?

It leads me to conclude that the superior does not care about the work that needs to be completed, nor does he care about his subordinates as a human being - to him, they are probably tools that can be used to complete tasks.

Of course, all of these are in the point of view of a disgruntled subordinate. It is definitely biased, and the whole world can say "welcome to the working world" for all I care. I do not believe in these kind of working habits and environment, especially when they are constantly enforced on the subordinate.

The superior also attended the event that the subordinate was preparing the whole afternoon for, refusing to acknowledge receipt of the subordinate's reply that finishing the work during the weekend is impossible as he has a whole day event on during Saturday. The superior also ignored the subordinate's presence in the event, preferring to mingle in the presence of higher ups.

心は大切だから

見失いで

Park Amsterdam - Sakamoto Maaya

one day, sitting in a tree
i couldn't help but notice you there in the park
you weren't like all the others
you could fit me in your pocket
and just seemed so large

but then you really tried to talk to me
we chatted all about your mom and everything
and if somebody pointed out the fact you have no wings...
wouldn't mean a thing

and like a dream we saw the world together
"goodbye" to differences
"hello" to each other
harmony
unity
day and night
you and me
and paradise

met the queen of hearts
while out dancing on the lake
and she asked us to a party
"you can bring some friends
but don't be late"

climbed aboard a bus
and it drove us to the castle
but we didn't have to pay
cause the driver was the jester's brother

sadly sighed the king
cause somebody took his cake
so we gave him some of ours
and he smiled so wide
he at his plate

he asked you to sing
and i won't forget the faces
or the awful melody
you and jester singing out of key

not a better time
could be had for all the moment
the king beamed, "allow me please"
"let my ballon take you across the ocean"
(you and me across the ocean,
in his ballon, you and me and harmony)

didin't try to put me in a cage of your convenience
like some others have
instead you took me to your favorite garden in Manhattan
and we had a laugh

along the way i fell in love with you
don't think i could ever get enough of you
and if somebody pointed out the fact that you can't sing...
wouldn't mean a thing

God's glory

God glorifies himself so that all may come to know him;
And that those who claim glory for themselves out of God's hands are not justified in doing so - for doing so would be like a pot claiming that it is beautiful and wonderful, disregarding the skill of the potter's hands that shaped it.

timetravellove and other random stuff

I finally watched (most of) 不能说的秘密. such a lovely film. except for the CG-y parts.

I think I need more sleep. sleeping at 4-5am on fridays/saturdays seem to have become a norm. not good. I don't even repay my debts.

I think emotions is a tool. I might be often seen smiling, laughing, whining, exasperated, but hardly angry. Even when I become angry it is a controlled emotion, or rather a tool, to elicite a certain outcome. Hotheadness anger do not come often for me... or so I would like to believe.

Today I was trying to use anger to get something a child took from me. Being the patient sort at first I endulged in him, playing along with his game of catch. However it went overboard after repeated attempts of him taking my items and lying about the whereabouts (plus other people were waiting for me to go off), I sternly demanded that he return my item. Multiple times. Before I became angry. And threatened to overturn the sofa. And lifted the sofa for show. That was when he finally gave me back my item.

Am I behaving childishly? Maybe. Am I wrong to put on emotions to serve my needs? I don't know. At least my emotions were under my control - I think that is a good thing, especially for anger. I might not be able to do so for other emotions, but those would need further working on.

もういいよ

もう動かなければならないんだ。

心が折れたら、どうする

concern

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black stains on forehead

ただ疲れているんだ

一人になりたい夜

Dreamless

Oh you who art dreamless
You who shape your life around those you love,
living for purposes of others,
Trying to understand their life and motives,
Assisting them in colouring their dreams,
Loving them with pure emotions.

But you, you who have no dreams.
You drift around like a balloon without a string,
You let yourself be drifted by the seasonal winds,
You are tossed around by the whimsical drafts,
You do not even have a destination,
A homeless spirit with no tomb.

You feed on the happiness of others,
But yet for all the happiness you can create,
You are constantly malnourished.
Isn't it time when you learn to dream, to steer, to love passionately,
To create your own little happiness,
Instead of running away time and again.

26581124122

If I were to be only known for my achievements thus far, I would be called 26581124122, or some other variant/permutation. Pleased to meet you.

Finding the rhythm of life

Perhaps I had never noticed the innate pattern, perhaps I wasn't exposed to it when I was young. Perhaps I have intentionally suppressed it over the years, perhaps there will never be such a thing. However, right now I am trying to find the rhythm of life - of my life, my innate movement and flow, my ebb and my surge, my tempo and my rest, my push and my pull. My oneness with myself.

Not dreaming

It struck me how little I dream, or even remember I was dreaming these few weeks. At least at night in bed. Was dozing off in sermon today, half thinking half formed thoughts, and dreaming a lot. I don't remember what I was daydreaming about, but at least I was moving around in my dreamworld, interacting with dream people. I need to sleep more but bad habits and circumstances probably prevents me from doing so.

記憶

Da Silva Lane

This address seems so familiar, perhaps it is where my lower pri form teacher stayed. I remember that she invited the class over to her house once before, and I remember watching Peter Pan for the first and only time there. I remember the clock in the alligator, Wendy being forced off the plank, Captain Hook's ... hook, Peter Pan and Tinkerbell flying around. However I didn't even remember that I could blog this using my IPT on the taxi ride home, until I was debating whether to switch on my laptop at home. Memory is a funny thing. I have no impression of certain happenings at all, while some (?)repressed memories come out in an instant at some trigger. And possibly some of my memories are fake/self-created, to fill gaps, to maintain logical flow etc. I hope I still can differentiate between reality and made-up thoughts though.

Today's lucky number is 4. According to the dice.